I Don't Know

It's been a challenging week to say the least. Beckham came down with a cold two weekends ago. I took him to the urgent care on Saturday with a 103 degree fever. Just a virus, so he didn't get any drugs. Then on Tuesday I took him back to his pediatrician just to make sure he was still okay. The doctor said other than his wild and crazy hair, he was just fine and I would have to wait it out. Love that answer!

Beckham has thrown me all new curve balls this week and my only response has been "I don't know."

I don't know why he's waking up in the middle of the night (the boy usually sleeps 12 hours straight!)
I don't know if he's teething
I don't know why he cried inconsolably for more than an hour
I don't know why he's crying
I don't know if he has an ear infection (even though the doctor checked his ears and said they were fine)
I don't know why he woke up at 9pm, 11pm, 1am, 4am and 6am the other night
I don't know why he cries for the neighbors when they watch him
I don't know why he screams bloody murder when his daddy puts him to bed
I don't know if he's getting enough to eat
I don't know if I need to drop his "cat nap" at the end of the day
I don't know if he's sleeping too much during the day
I don't know if I need to start him on solids
I don't know if I should start unswaddling him
I just don't know!!!!!

Just when I thought I had him figured out! Despite coming to the stark realization that I don't have all the answers, there is one thing I learned I DO know: it doesn't matter how old (or young) you are, when you're sick you just want your momma. I so loved that when Beckham was sick, he wanted me! I was the one who could comfort him and make him feel better. He would just lay in my chest with his face under my chin and cuddle. It was the sweetest thing ever and I can't explain how amazing it felt, but it made real this aspect of motherhood. I wouldn't trade all the "I don't knows" for that moment. And, I can't help but to think that even when he's 30... if he's sick, he'll want his momma!

Here are a few recent Mommy and Beckham moments. I realized going through my pictures that I only have one picture of just the two of us from the month of February. I'll have to work on that next month.


Beckham's First Gasparilla


Beckham and me with my Nana (Mom's Mother, 90 years old)


Four Generations: Nana, Lala (my mom's "Grandma" name), Me and Beckham. I love this picture for Beckham because I never had any great-grandparents. He is so blessed to have six!


Beckham meets his first Florida Gator - Riley Cooper! He is Tim Tebow's roommate. We met him on our way to my Grandfather's funeral in Texas. He was on our flight from Tampa to Houston. He was so nice to let us take a picture with him. Non-Gator fans have said this is a great family photo!

My First Workout Video

I was trying to make Beckham smile the other night before we headed out for the evening. I did not expect for him to giggle so much! It was so incredible to hear him cackle and see him grin from ear to ear. Justin and I were so amazed at his little expressions. And, I was out of breath by the end of it!

Will You Be Mine?

I have been thinking about sending out a Valentine's Day card since I mailed out my Christmas cards. But of course, I was scrambling at the last minute. I just discovered Smilebox - where you can send personalized ecards. Perfect... a Valentine's ecard it is! Maybe next year I can get my act together - or at least find a better Valentine's Day outfit for little Beckham! That "Sweetheart" t-shirt isn't exactly what I envisioned. But, there were no Valentine's bibs to be found at Babies 'R Us or Target this weekend. I happened to find this little t-shirt as I was about to checkout at Target - $1 and 30% off! For one picture, it was worth it.

CHECK OUT THE CARD HERE

♥-Day Traditions

For the last five or so years, we've been celebrating Valentine's Day with the Codes. Jordan and JP make dinner (well, JP makes dinner and Jordan supervises!). The girls relax and enjoy being served! Jordan also picks a movie for us to watch after dinner, which has yet to be a true Valentine's Day flick. This year we watched "The Invention of Lying". We're actually improving from years past - Pride & Glory, The Departed and The Waitress. Paige and I decided we were going to pick the movie next year.


The menu this year: New York Strip with a Dark Chocolate Glaze and Buffalo Mac & Cheese. It was delicious! Paige made a fabulous dessert - a Tiramisu Trifle. We took a huge risk by taking this picture. It could have been disastrous! Beckham is constantly spitting up. Thank goodness he didn't ruin the dessert!


We also enjoyed some delicious Wedding Cake Martinis. Paige has been talking about it for a couple years. She tried it at a friend's bridal shower and had wanted to make them ever since. We haven't been able to make them until now because Paige was pregnant two years ago and I was pregnant last year. So, this was the year of the martinis!

We've Moved

Ok, so we are going to try to get this blog going... for real this time. Hopefully we will keep the posts coming.